Its you that makes me laugh..

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 17:47:40 GMT

Its Brian and I's 1 year anniversary. He couldnt make it, but i was just surprised with roses and 6 balloonss!!! yay they are so beautiful :) i love him..*sigh* ok we are on the phone now, i love this man! LOVEEE HIIMMMM!!

Christine <3 Brian 6*2*04 & Always

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 18:19:04 GMT

My baby bought me a bracelet just becuse lol i LOVE it!!!! i put a pic off the website lol but it kinda looks different the stones are more of a baby blue color and the parts that just look like silver chunks there are diamonds in in each space in between the blue topaz :) Ilove my baby so much I dont kno what i would do without him :) Im going to see him on friday!!!! Im so excited :) he lives in Long Island and doesnt have a car right now so times are hard so my best friend and i are driving to him :) im so excited i cant wait to just huh him and kiss him and feel his face and arms and gaaahhhh so excited :) ok thats my rant lol

Just some shit been thinking about...

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 04:27:40 GMT

Just a Rant :)

I think every girl at some point in their lives are not happy with themselves, and now would be my time. I used to be "content" with my looks and my weight and my face and everything else that might be important, but recently I just can't get over the fact that although i have a great looking awesome and supporting boyfriend I just dont understand what he sees in me. He could have probably just about anyone he wanted, but he wants me and it boggles my mind. He should have the "perfect girl" the beautiful body, perfect hair, perfect smile, someone who fits with him when out around the town...but he has me. No where near a perfect body just dyed my hair red which some think look PURPLE my smile is average and if people saw us together i know their first reaction would be "what the fuck is he doing with her?" Knowing this has prevented me from trusting him because I have it in my mind that as soon as that perfect girl comes around im pushed out of the way.
I wish I was capable of speaking up for myself. I allow people to walk all over me because i care too much if people hate me. I hate when i get talked about behind my back, if you have something to say please come tell me. I hate confrontation but i want to know what u have a problem with me. I will listen and try my best to fix it, but if i cant then i guess i will just have to deal with the fact that not everyone can like me.
I wish my boyfriend would stop trying to compete with my ex boyfriends. They are my ex's for a reason. The are not better then you, i dont want to get back with any of them and never will. I will not do anything to mess us up so trust me when i tell you Frank and Ben and Bill mean nothing to me anymore. They are my past, you are my now and future and thats all u need to know.
I'm sorry to anyone i may have pushed out of my life...or if u feel like i dont want you there im sorry for that too. Friendships are amazing things to have and if i have ever done that to anyone i am sorry and i will fix it, dont give up on me.
Finally, WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING ABOUT SCHOOL?!?! I just dont know anymore. I dont want to leave the comfort of my home and my friends and my dad who altho he is a huge pain in my ass i will miss him, and i dont want to leave him with my little brother with no one to be here for him when he needs to work extra hours. Somehow i think ill do another semester at the community college and then probably go somewhere close so that i can still be here if im needed but far enough to be my own person and not worry about what my dad would say about my decisions as a 20 yr old now.

Sorry this is so long...but I feel better now :) thanks for reading if u did

::smile::

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 20:04:20 GMT

<3 I Love my Baby Brian <3

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 16:04:44 GMT

soooo yea....I broke up with Brian. I guess thats about all the news i have lol i know interesting stuff huh :) anyyyway, yea thats it. Buh Bye

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 17:27:23 GMT

This weekend...was soooo much fun lol Saturday i got wasted, now this was my first time actually being able to drink becuz i am always the designated driver, but my time had come :) we had some good ass shots...my favorite being the peppermint patty as well :) and then i played quaters with mikey, mike, melissa, bill and werner for i dont even know how long...maybe like hour-hour and a half. All i know is Mike *ginas husband* and Bill kept getting it in my cup. It was a blast. Didnt even sleep that night becuz i was ummm "talking" to someone for like ever, and then just finally left and dropped everyone off at like 8:00am. Only to go home sleep for about 4 hours and get up to go to my moms house. I had the WORST headache and like couldnt keep my eyes open any longer lol. Going there is interesting as well becuz my moms husbands twin brother tottallly wants me lol and i dont say that to be conceited but he really does. And when he comes over i dont really know what the hell to talk about to him..its like, his english isnt all that great and he has a gf of 5 years, what kind of conversation am i supposed to hold with him. My mom always pushes me to talk to him too...so she doesnt help the matter much. BUT NEEEWAY i am in the library supposed to be writing this 6 page paper thats due today by 4pm but somehow i dont think its going to happen. SO sad. well i think its time to go home now take a little nap or something...try to do this paper later and then call someone after 9 :) ta ta

-Tini

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 22:25:55 GMT

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BIGGEST PET PEEVE OF MY FRIGGEN LIFE!!!!

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 00:01:52 GMT

I, Christine, HATE..DESPISE..WANT TO CLAW MY EYES OUT..if you put me on hold.

****I can not stand talking to someone *ie Brian* and every 2.5 seconds hear "can you hold on a sec?" i feel like screaming NO I FUCKIN CANT!!! I HATE IT!!! U FUCKIN PUT ME ON HOLD 1 MORE TIME I AM HANGING UP ON YUR ASS!! damn that would feel good, but no i simply say, 'sure'. god damn i am pussy. ok thats all the ranting i need to do, just know i HATE being on hold :) thank you and buh bye ;)****

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 18:54:54 GMT

...."MY ex has my cell number, but i dont how she got it. But i never talk to her and she doesnt call me."

-UMMMMMM BULLSHIT?!?!?!?! anyone else sense bullshit? i sense bullshit. Did she magically come up with some numbers in her head and call it and holy fuckin shit its brian!!!!

-if she didnt call HOW would you know she has your number?!?!?!?!?! ooooooo i fuckin hate liars, hate them hate them hate them!!

-Fuck Men :) *except Mikey of course..you knew this was coming :)*

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 23:20:40 GMT

IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA IM VOTING FOR KERRY LA DI DA....OK THATS ALLLLLLLLLLL I HAVE TO SAY :) ....and i just talked to Brian for 4 hours straight..thats fuckin sick!!! have a nice day :)

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 19:33:35 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIANNE!!! Im working today...but im off tuesday and wednesday...maybe lunch? dinner? something let me know :) yay 20!! u old bitch ;)

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 06:15:43 GMT

JEALOUSY IS A BITCH!!!!!

-Night

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 01:07:40 GMT

I need to learn to mind my own business. Yes, thats what i need to do. I mean, i dont think i pry into everyones business or lean as far into someone as i can to hear their conversation, but if am somehow the 3rd party in something, i am just keeping my mouth shut. That would be my best bet so i dont feel like a total asshole when i am done saying what i need to. GrrRrrRRrRRrrRRRrRRR!!! I also need to stop giving my opinion to things. Yes i know everyone has the right to speak their mind blah blah blah blah and that opinions are like assholes everyones got one, but from now on i aint sayin shit.

Dont ask me what i think of something,
Dont ask me if the shirt makes u look fat
Dont ask me if this color makes ur ass look smaller
Dont ask me what u should do about something...

Because i am out of opinions. Somehow i will hurt someone, piss someone off, or just feel like shit afterwards. NO MAS!!! harsh but true, i cant do this shit anymore :(

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 14:26:06 GMT

NOTE TO SELF: stop leaving papers to last minute u fuckin dumbass!!!! GGrrrRRRrrRRRrrRRR!!!!!! Knew i would hate "AGe of Revolutions" for History...blah blah blah blah blah blah off to write this paper that is going to turn out INCREDIBLY bad :) ta ta

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 21:20:04 GMT

jkhdsjsajdnkjdakhsbdbqweh3nb dm v,hvbgqyhbgw!!!!!!
sorry...
frustrated...feel better now :)

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 21:52:45 GMT

24 Days
6 Hours
9 minutes remaining.....

hmm...

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 04:02:48 GMT

Why do relationships have to be so difficult? Why cant they just flow with ease and we get along all the time and not fight and be able to be ok with not seeing their significant other for a period of time. Why when we fall for someone do we feel the need to be with them ALL the time even tho you know thats impossible, and even tho you know this you still pester and annoy the person ur with to make more time for you. I know he has a lot of shit he needs to take care of....i just need some of his time too. *sigh* Its kinda rocky at the moment....we are working on it tho, so hopefully</em> it will work out in the end...and if not hopefully we can still be friends even tho i know that would be hard for me and him both. I used to always complain when i was dating frank that he was always up my ass and thats why i had to break up with him because i just couldnt stand him anymore, and i told myself never to want to have my boyfriend around all the time as for me not to get sick of him, but i want brian with me like...24/7. Is that selfish of me....probably, do i care...not really. oh well....guess i will just have to wait it out and see how things work themselves out. I gave him an ultimatum the other night, i felt like shit afterwards but i need some of his time or i just cant go on anymore. I told him he had a month to come see me more and what not, or i would have to leave he relationship. Is that fair? I honestly dont know if after a month if this shit doesnt happen if i will have the strength to break it off sooooo if by October 21, 2004 if i dont see an improvement someone is gonna have to help me thru this :( alright i am done rambling...sorry this is so long, i just dont know what to do anymore...ah well :/

:)

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 05:23:47 GMT

I havent updated in like forever...so now seems like a good time :) For those that dont know... which is probably no one lol ball of shade aka ben has been discarded and i have someone new :) His name is Brian, he is 21, lives in NY muscular *yum* brown hair blue eyes bout 5'11 goes to school...and has a son. I am not sure how many of you i told that to, but so i am not hiding anything to anyone, there it is. I am accepting of this even tho i always told myself i wouldnt get involved with someone who had kids. He is different, he makes me so happy and for me to not give him a chance because of his son, i would have been missing out on an awesome guy. If anyone tells me at 19 i dont need to be involved with someone that has a child, save it because i dont need or want a lecture ok? just please do me that favor. I have come to reliaze that it is unfair of me to judge someone who may have a child. I mean, he sees his son, he takes care of his son, gives the girl money for him, so why should he be thrown out of the dating pool because he has a litte baggage. I am rambling lol but u get my point, Brian makes me happy, and i am not saying he is perfect because everyone has flaws and makes mistakes, but i am the one that has to be ok with it and i am...so if someone isnt, i dont want to know about it keep it to yourself because i promise you it will piss me off if you try to talk to me about it and i am not going to give him up because of that small factor. MOVING ON!!! school started...i guess its ok i mean i am only taking 5 classes so its not all that bad. My history teacher looks like robin williams and sounds like kermit the frog and my english teacher looks like bob saget...giggles for all :) well i think thats all i have to update about...Good night :)

Driving tips 101

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 17:19:05 GMT

1. Do not stop at GREEN lights

2. You CAN NOT drive in neutral

3. If you come across a scary man on his lawn at 1 in the morning and all you see is him in the shadows of the trees....DRIVE FASTER :)

4. Do not have a friend in the backseat of your car who is ready to pee her pants because she hasnt peed in the last 6 hours and then almost drive off the road ...because..YOU WILL HAVE A WET BACK SEAT!!

5. IF you are going to stalk lets say..a co-worker, always remember to wear a wig to hide ur identity as it is already 1 in the morning and i doubt he will be looking out his window the exact moment you drive by :)

6. WHIPPING on the grassy patch in which you park your car is scary and yet fun....but not recommended lol

-*This has been brought to you by one fucking eventful trip to Bayville which i probably wont ever forget. happy driving :)*

bleck

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 15:35:51 GMT

WHY cant guys not be so complicated? WHY do they make promises and break them? WHY do they tell you one thing and do another? WHY dont they call when they say they will? WHY is it so difficult to go through with their plans? WHY do they tell you they love you but sometimes act like they dont care? WHY do they get jealous over the stupidest shit but wont tell you how they are feeling? WHY do they think they have to put up some stupid macho man act?...i give up.... WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!! I dont fuckin know..if i did MAYBE i would be in a better fuckin mood right now. MEN! YOU SUCK!!

hmm..

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 19:02:56 GMT

I HAVE NOTHING TO UPDATE ABOUT!!!!!!!!! i just wanted to show my Jack icon tee hee ..thanx mikey!!!! OH maybe i do have something to update about. This girl i work with Ami is a piece of big ecuadorian shit!!!! she is 17 and seriously might not live to see 18 because the bitch needs to be behind my car next time i back up. She talks about how she beats all these people up and she is so 'tough' whatever bitch your NASTY and needs TO GO. She has been starting with me alot these past couple of days, the last instance she told me i was 'really starting to piss her off' because her stupid ass wouldnt move out of my way so i kept reaching around her. She is lucky i did whack her upside the head with my till. She fucking lives in the Silver Ridge Apartments....enough said! OK that is all because if i keep ranting we will be here for hours. Toodles :)

GRRRRRRRRR

Fri, 28 May 2004 04:33:49 GMT

MEN SUCK!!!!!!!!!!that is all

.....

Mon, 17 May 2004 04:55:17 GMT

I am told i never update...which is true...because i have not a damn thing to update about....but umm...ben didnt come which you all know....didnt break up with him...which...you all know...um um um birthday was rad..thanx for those who were with me on it even tho one in particular had a very hard day :) i appreciate you still wanting to be there for me on my day...um um um.....i failed 2 classes this semster, italian and math and then i got a C in History, a C+ in english and a B in chid development...dad is going to murder me...well thats about all i got...soooooooooooo i updated so there! night night -me

YAY!!!!

Sun, 09 May 2004 13:44:51 GMT

Ben is coming today..ben is coming today...ben is coming today!!! laaaaa diii daaaaa....ben is coming today, ben is coming today...we would have been flying in but he decides last night he is scared of heights...sooooooooooo he is driving which means i have to wait 12 hours before i get to see him...he left at 9:30...soooooooo if give him an hour to pull over and possibly nap..and any traffic time *hopefully none...cross your fingers* i am thinkin he will be arriving about 11!!! woo hoo!! i love him so s sosososososososo much... ok i gotta go clean and go see my mom before he gets here!!! sooo needless to say i probably wont be around much these next 2 weeks. Adios :)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Wed, 05 May 2004 12:20:17 GMT

I am getting new siding put on my house and the fucking assholes showed up yesterday at 6:30 in the FUCKING MORNING and started banging away with their hammers...6 fucking 30!!! and today i guess they figuring they would be nice and came at 8....i am about to go out there and shove the hammers up their asses!!! fuckers fuckers fuckers!!!!!!! Its driving me crazzzzzzzzzzzzyyyy they are working on the part of the house right below and next to my room...what a way to wake up...::thud thud thud thud thud thud thud thud thud:: over and over and over and over and over....you get the point...ok now i am grumpy hahaha...gotta go write some papers. Toodles.